Snuggleless

One of the worst things about hospital stays isn't that the sheets scratch or the mattress is hard. It's that it is a pretty lonely place to sleep. It is really tough saying goodbye to Cam each night especially when I know it might go on for over a month at a time. In other hospitals Cam has slept in all kinds of makeshift bedding arrangments but this one has a strict policy that visitors must leave by 8pm. Even though I always felt extremely guilty about him staying there was always something comforting about hearing him softly snore.

When I am in here I miss rolling over and having someone in the other part of the bed, or having chats about random things as we drift off to sleep. I miss having a sleepy someone to tell stories about my day to - someone to listen to what I am worried about or giggle about the silly things. I miss having someone to keep me company when I cough all night and rub my back and I miss having someone to steal pillows from. I miss my husband.

There is something pretty therapeutic about having someone to snuggle with at night and that is a pretty good incentive to get home to my own bed. Tonights picture isn't the best quality but I think in an iphone selfy kind of way tells how much I hate goodnight goodbyes.

J x